Random Wednesday: Haunting. You. Me. We. Oh yeah…

Blogger group question: Who would I want to be haunted by and who would I not want to be haunted by?

Answer: The introvert in me thinks, “Ehh….no one and obviously no one?” I’m not sure that’s an acceptable answer so Miss Anti-Social is going to play along. But for the record, in case you had plans for the after life, I’m not interested.

Who would I want to be haunted by? How about Kevin Bacon? Yeah, Kevin Bacon.

Did you just pick a random person? No. Maybe. Okay yes. But he seems like a likable person and he could teach me the choreography of Footloose. I would also laugh at his Tremors hijinks. Can you imagine the company? “Why is your living room floor shaking?” And I would be all smug, “That’s my ghost, Kevin Bacon. It’s his Tremors schtick. Just make sure you stay on his good side. You don’t want to know about his Stir of Echoes pranks.”

Who would I not want to be haunted by? John Travolta’s Hair Pieces.


They just kind of show up. Then, one day they’re gone.

Next day their back.


Spooky, am I right? I don’t think I handle being haunted by this level inconsistency. It frightens me and it should frighten you too.

If you can’t sleep tonight because you are thinking about John Travolta hair pieces haunting you, I apologize, but who doesn’t like a good ghost story?

HAPPY HALLOWEEN READERS!

Please visit the ladies:

Bronwyn Green

Jessica Jarman

Gwendolyn Cease

Random Wednesday: Five Words or Less – My Style, My Looks, My Personality

Five words or less?

Challenge accepted.

My Style: Mom pants and nursing bras.

The oddest pose I could find on google images of a woman in a nursing bra.

My Looks: Ray bans need adjusting.

Super cute unless they are too loose for your face, get knocked off by accident, and land underneath your car.

My Personality: Oozing with charisma and sarcasm.

Like Robert Downey Jr with less drugs and no rap sheet.

Check out my girls.

Bronwyn Green

Jessica Jarman

Kris Norris

Gwendolyn Cease

Paige Prince

Song Flash Fiction: If I Lose Myself

Time for a song inspired flash fiction piece or as we all know my secret when it comes to flash fiction pieces.

Word vomit.

Ahhh yisss.

The song for today is One Republic, If I Lose Myself. I was really surprised to find out there are very few lyrics to the song which feels like it goes on for a long time. Hopefully my story doesn’t do the same. If you feel that it does you can always skip back to the top and check out the other awesome nerds.

Bronwyn Green

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Okay confession time. I didn’t write a flash fiction for today.

What?

I know.

And I’ll be honest on why I didn’t get my homework done. Today is my son’s first day at daycare and my first day back at work after a maternity leave. I wish I could say days like today are easy. They aren’t.

It’s difficult looking at my son’s eyes and seeing him smile at me when I say his name knowing I’ll be away from him for nine hours of my day. Someone else will get to laugh when he does his arched back super stretches and lets out a rock star fart.

I’m going to miss him. I’m going to miss giving him those little kisses on his forehead that makes him close his eyes. I’m going to miss when he approaches a deep sleep and wakes himself up by giggling. I’m really going to miss my little boy today.

Have a good day today little guy. Mom will see you after work.

And you will be getting the biggest goddamn hug.

Random Wednesday: Guilty Pleasures and Indulgences

If you read my blog regularly you know what one of my guilty pleasures is:

Helllloooo oreo milkshake!!!!

My husband and I also have a thing for bags. I have a thing for purses and totes, he has a weakness for messenger bags and backpacks. I’m not sure who has more but we try to balance out and talk each other off the ledge when we have a new bag craving. This bag however he allowed me to give in to.

I wore this at my wedding reception. I’m not joking. I’m also not ashamed to say I’m not joking.

This is the point in writing my weekly blog where I ask my husband, “What would you say are my guilty pleasures and indulgences?” This was the conversation that follows:

“Slurpees and coffee.”

“I’m trying to stay away from beverages. I already listed oreo milkshakes. Plus slurpees are just delicious and coffee is a necessity. Just slightly indulgent that I like the expensive fancy kind.”

“Purses and bags?”

“Got that.”

“Not shoes.”

“Not clothes. Not makeup.”

“Not nail polish…”

And this is the end of the blog were I realize I’m a very cheap and boring individual. I just might have to go buy myself an oreo milkshake tomorrow to brighten things up a bit! WATCH OUT WORLD! THINGS ARE GETTING CRAZY!

Okay, not so much. Let’s hope the other girls are a little more exciting.

Bronwyn Green

Gwendolyn Cease

Random Wednesday: Favorite Things – Halloween or is it Thanksgiving?

The topic is favorite things – “holiday” and well, my views of my favorite holiday have changed over the years.

Halloween was definitely number one for a long time. You see, Halloween falls on the month of my birthday and tradition has been to decorate for Halloween the weekend following my birthday. It’s one of my favorite things to do. Dressing up is also fun but, if you want to know the truth, I enjoy after the night has winded down much more. Cuddle up with some candy, put on a scary movie, and enjoy the rest of the night with way too much sugar, a room lit with just Halloween decorations, and some murderous killer or psychological thrillers.

Or monsters.

I dig Tremors.

I’ll always enjoy Halloween for these reasons but the older I’ve gotten the more I’ve out grown some of these things. Now, it’s sharing these experiences with my kids that I enjoy. I had a lot of help this year putting up decorations which was really cute. My daughter informed me we had too many bats. I don’t plan on dressing up but the kids costumes are ready to go. We go through an obscene amount of candy in our neighborhood and by the end of the night, not really feeling candy. You know I’m eating it while I’m passing it out. WE ALL DO IT! And those scary movies are more kid friendly. Last year it was Harry and the Henderson’s.

And while looking for a picture to post…I’m going to admit this movie is slightly creepy.

However, recently my personal favorite holiday has changed over to Thanksgiving. Reason being is I put my foot down and said, “I’m not driving all over hell just to eat turkey. This is my holiday. I claim it.”

Which was the best decision I ever made. It’s the one holiday that I can have with my family, at my house, and eat what I want, and just feel like I get to enjoy it instead of feeling rushed to go from place to place and socialize with every individual regardless if I want to socialize with them or not. Family is always welcome and the past few years I’ve been doing this, the in-laws come over. It’s nice to be the adult and get to host. My husband makes a mean turkey and my sweet potato casserole is a fan favorite.

I don’t recall where I got my recipe but I got the idea from Ruth’s Chris, a restaurant that is awesome enough to post their recipes.

Now that fall is here and too many bats are up, we get to have a great Halloween for the kids and a lovely neighborhood community to enjoy (shout out to the family that follows their kids around trick or treating with a wagon full of beer, you’re my hero) followed up by a delicious family feast next month.

And then all hell fucking breaks loose in the chaos that is Christmas. We’ll save that shit show for another post.

Below are the lovely ladies and their favorite things about their favorite holiday.

Bronwyn Green

Gwendolyn Cease

Kellie St. James

Paige Prince

Kris Norris

Photo Flash Fiction: Ditch The Heels, This Cinderella Doesn’t Want To Be Found

I’m cheating on this one. The photo reminded me of a story I had written a while back prior to joining the blogging group. It’s been just sitting around waiting for something to happen, or nothing to happen. If you reflect back to my previous writers block post, this was a word vomit piece that I wrote while stuck on my manuscript outline.

This one is kind of long so if you’re on the toilet reading this on your cell phone you might need multiple trips.

Here are the other ladies as well for some good stories and stuffs.

Bronwyn Green

Jessica Jarman

Kayleigh Jones

Kellie St. James

Kris Norris

10-2015 - WomaninWhite

Megan was in tears laughing this weekend when I told her I found wasps, hornets, and bees confusing. I admit, I thought bumble bees were yellow jackets when I was a kid because they look like they’re wearing little fuzzy yellow coats. Flawless logic in my opinion. I’ve only been stung once in my life. It was last year when a nest was underneath the trash bin lid. I moved it up from the curve, slammed down the bin, and aggravated the occupants. Rule of thumb, I mostly stay away from things that sting. Don’t give a rats what category it falls under. The nastiest ones are the ground bees. Those bastards made a nest under the shed and would swarm my dog when he went outside to go to the bathroom. Luckily the house was a rental and the landlord dealt with it. You can’t just spray those kind. You have to dig up the nest and destroy it. Then later it gets eaten by a raccoon. True story.

The conversation we were having wasn’t really about flamboyantly dressed insects. Megan was fishing for information due to a happy little occurrence of my ex-boyfriend standing up in her wedding which I was kindly invited to. As an usher of course. Let’s not make it awkward or anything. The chance of there being a scene is unlikely. I don’t drink so there will be no drunken confessions of, “but I thought you loved me, was she worth it?” and I know he still drives my house periodically to check the progress of my lawn. If he had a suitable replacement to occupy his time he wouldn’t be concerned about my sprinklers going off at five in the morning. Why else would be driving by so early? It’s not as if he is making sure no one is staying overnight at my house. No, of course not. He just must be concerned my grass roots are getting adequate amount of moisture.

Okay, Megan doesn’t know about his compulsive horticultural tendencies. Nor do I intend to inform her this minute detail in the event it can be construed to a handsome-groomsmen-crazy-stalker dilemma manifested by an overly stressed bride. What am I kidding? It is a handsome-groomsmen-crazy-stalker dilemma but Megan doesn’t need to know. I’m confident nothing will happen at the wedding. Well, I’m confident I won’t be causing a scene at the wedding. And by “scene” I mean involving a former love. However, If there is karaoke we’re all doomed and the inevitable scene will be my fault.

“I know you feel stung by what he did and I think he is a little hurt by the breakup too,” was the way Megan worded it.
“Stung?” How cliche I thought, “We’re fine. Remedied our relationship to a civil friendship with a little baking soda and water paste.”

Megan only responded with a glare and I felt obliged to be honest, “We’re on nonspeaking terms. Not because I’m angry. Our relationship has run it’s course and there are a lot of emotions involved on both sides. I just feel it’s best we keep our space to help us both get use to our new situation. But, I do not have issue being at the same event he is. We’ll be fine. All jokes aside. I promise it will be fine.”

It appears as though Megan has planted a seed and it has grown into an internal Sequia of anxiety. I know it was an innocent concern with a smidge of selfishness more than friendliness. But, now I can’t stop thinking about the wedding myself. My job is simple: show up, hand out programs, go to the reception, put my gift on a table, and leave after cake. I am not bringing a date nor did Megan’s invitation include a “plus one” perk if I had someone in mind. But what if he brought a date? In my mind he is one who is hurt and can’t let go. But, I’m the one who left the relationship defeated and broken beyond words. I don’t know if I can handle seeing him happy, in a tux, illuminated by the sun light shining through stain glass windows onto the alter with a beautiful woman in the front row smiling and taking pictures of him while I’m the cheap store bought dress holding a stack of printed sheets from Kinkos at the door. All this nonsense made me sleepless and my thoughts wander to dark places when it isn’t occupied.

Finally one morning I decided to get up early and see if he drives by. He didn’t. At least I have that going for me.

By the time the wedding day arrives I have concluded getting my nails done was a bad decision because I’ve spent the last fifteen minutes trying to figure out how to operate my false nails and pick up the the change I’ve dropped on the kitchen floor. Megan told me the wedding colors were kelly and eggplant. That’s about the time I learned “kelly” is a shade of green. I give kudos to the bridal store marketing department for their color palette naming convention. I decided to go with a simple organic cotton sundress in cool slate with a gradated springtime periwinkle pattern toward the hemline. I didn’t get my dress at a bridal boutique but I can make up my own marketing scheme to make my dress sound fancier than the one time use outfit that it is. I also decided to pair my ensemble with the tallest black heels I could find. For the simple reason of being around unwanted company I might was well look somewhat intimidating with a few inches of tallness. I was excluded from the wedding party, given a menial job, and dateless. At least I could look bigger and frighten bear if one comes around. 

The church is one of those churches that most likely gives to themselves more than they give to the poor. It’s a modern building. No steeples and the stain glass windows depict crosses, hearts, doves, and lambs. Missing from the church are pictures of decorated prophets, veiled woman, and a suffering Jesus maimed and bloodied. The congregation comes to fill their obligation to being christian by attending church, praying for the less fortunate, confessing their sins during a small moment of silence, then pouring a few bucks a week into the offering that will later be used as a tax credit. From there board and or committee members will then decide where the money goes and happily build the most magnificent building on this side of the city during the middle of a recession. Though I understand why Megan choose this church. It was a sight to see and void of the nasty part of tradition. Tax exempt corporation, maybe, but a happy place none the less.

The guests weren’t to arrive for about another hour. The bride and her bridesmaids were getting ready in a nearby hotel. The groom and the groomsmen were getting ready elsewhere and I never asked where. The entrance to the church were two oversized wood doors and by the effort it took to move one of them, I’d easy assume they were solid wood. Two older woman were decorating by setting flower arrangements around the altar and at the end of each pew. The last pew near the entrance had a box sitting on the cushion. Inside was a freshly printed programs on kelly green stock and eggplant purple ink. I’m unsure if the printer forgot to fold them or if it was intended for me to fold. Megan never mentioned it. But it was clear they needed to be finished so I made myself comfortable on the pew and began to fold each program one at time. The woman handing the final touches either didn’t notice me or were told I would be there early. Either way they paid no attention to me and kept about their business. By the time I was halfway done folding a small orchestra had arrived. I watched them ask one of the ladies a few questions and she showed them where they would be performing. One of the violinist was fairly attractive but so was the blonde cellist with a the nice ass he kept talking to. I thought it best to keep my head down and focus on my work. But I did enjoy listening to them warm up.

Before I was done folding the programs guests started to arrive. Many people mingled exchanging pleasantries with what I assumed were extended family members or friends. I never thought to ask Megan if I was the only person to be handing out programs.

“Oh my God, I’m dumb!” escaped my mouth and was received negatively by a severe looking woman in a sequined jacket. I had just remembered I was handing out programs and if I wanted to know who the other ushers, greeters, whatever this job was listed as, are I can just look at the pile of papers I had in my hand. After a few glances the list it finally sank in what kind of situation I was about to face.

“Goddammit! Son of a…”

“Ma’am!” The woman in the sequined jacket was standing a few inches from my face with a glare intense enough to make a small dog piddle.

“Oh, I’m sorry. I learned bad habits in public school. Program?”

“You would do well keeping your curses to yourself and present yourself in a womanly fashion.” She then tugged the program from my hand and made her way toward the front of the church.

Within a few minutes the commotion went from hushed church gossip to a family event. People began yelling, swearing, and I saw one man pull a flask out of his jacket and pass it around to a few bystanders. I wasn’t sure if this was Megan’s side of the family or not but I did wish I knew them better. The noise started to drown out my thoughts and the constant flow of people into the sanctuary was a welcome distraction. Not a moment longer and I noticed I was getting low on programs and most of the seats were full. The only people lingering in the entrance looked to be immediate family members based on the corsages the mothers were wearing.

Then there he was. Standing in front of me holding on to an elder woman’s hand as she gushed about how handsome he looked in his tuxedo. Which he really did look amazing but as cute as he was it only added to the mixed emotions of surprise, anxiety, and anger. Megan prepared me to be here and to see him. But in my mind I would only be seeing him from a distance. Not face to face as he ushered family members to their seats.

“Would you like a program?” He asked the woman who I now recognized must be the groom’s grandmother. He took one from my hand with a smile directed to me and continued on. I don’t know if he knew I was going to be handing out programs but he didn’t seem to mind. And for a moment his smile made me feel as if I didn’t mind being here with him either. I watched him settle his guest and return for the mother of the groom. This time he didn’t look at me but only smiled as she took him by the arm as soft music began to play. Megan came around the corner with her bridesmaids, lining up carefully in an attempt to hide the bride from view as long as possible. When he returned for the last time he quickly took the arm of the first maid standing and focused only on the aisle, waiting for the music to cue them to enter.

Confident there will be no more people coming in until after the bridal party makes their way to the altar, I slipped into the last pew and waited. I wish I could say they were beautiful. But it was all typical. Megan’s dress was white and strapless. The girls all had the same body type and their hair done up in curls. The men were a little more mixed and it was clear which ones had help of a girlfriend to remind them to get a haircut or to shave their three day old beard. The groom didn’t blush as Megan had but he smiled widely and seemed at ease. A few stragglers snuck in when the pastor started to welcome the attendants for this glorious, happy day in the eyes of the Lord. The service started with a prayer and two church workers closed the sanctuary door. I then noticed on the other side of the door, in the back windowed off section, was an elderly woman in a motorized chair and a young mother holding an infant. I pushed a program to the window separating us and mouthed, “Want one?” Which they both answered with a smile and a shake of the head, no.

I couldn’t help but look at him. He was standing at the end of the line of groomsman with his hands folded politely in front of him. His face had been clean shaved and his hair trimmed since I’ve last saw him which had been some months ago. He looked happy and well which I suppose is better than miserable and questionable. I wouldn’t want to be responsible for causing him to hit rock bottom but there was something unsettling about seeing him that I couldn’t quite place. He had an almost smugness about him and it made me uncomfortable. And being uncomfortable is not something an individual of my personality is use to feeling.

My mind had wandered off for a while and before I knew it they were lighting a unity candle while a girl who vaguely looked familiar came up to sing a song. The wedding party was allowed to sit in the first row while this part of the ceremony took place. I tried to watch but my eyes continued to look towards him. All of a sudden I felt like a stalker. He kept turning around and smiling at the row behind him. This made me more aware of how alone I was. Sitting in the pew by myself, I was still several rows away from the nearest person and I didn’t recognize anyone even remotely near me. My eyes were drawn to him again with perfect and regrettable timing. There was a woman in the row behind him he was talking to. She was a woman I knew. When she leaned in and touched his arm it sent shivers down mine. My blood rushed to my face and my chest tightened. I struggled to breath and gain my composure. I should have been prepared, I should have known this would one day happen. But I expected it at a different time and a different woman.

This was the point where I made myself known. I stood up and headed straight for the door. I started feeling like I was suffocating and was in desperate need for air. If I could have gotten out of the sanctuary I would have had a chance of surviving. But I didn’t. I fell. Tripping over my own heels, I hit against the door with so much force the thud resonated off of the tall walls and sounded throughout the entire church. The following silence was stunning and no one came to my rescue to offer a helping hand. I managed to get myself up as quickly as possible and soon realized my foot had slipped out of one of my heels. In a split second decision I kicked off the second shoe and unintentionally booted it all the way up to the front of the church a few feet short of the altar. I didn’t stay to hear the reactions but I think I caught someone out of the corner of my eye through up his hands in a football goal formation.

I overreacted. This I’m sure of. But where to go from here, I didn’t know. My car wasn’t far and I knew I didn’t want to drive home. Once I reached my vehicle after cutting through a few backyards, I fumbled with my keys and caught a glimpse of someone in my rearview I didn’t recognize and pretty sure at this point I wouldn’t ever get to know. Calling someone came to mind but a person to call did not. A friend or a family member would always be there for me. It’s part of an unwritten contract, “I’ll always be there in a time of need.” But I had just made a scene during my friends wedding and that seemed to be a crime punishable by death.

I could just imagine my mom, “How was the wedding?”

“Oh, my ex was there with the girl he cheated on me with which gave me a panic attack and whilst trying to escape I broke the Hindenburg record going down and with just as much flame and carnage.”

Mom would then try to comfort me at first, conclude I acted inappropriately, and spend the rest of the evening planning out how I would apologize and make up for the situation I caused. We may have gone through this routine before. I admit nothing. I’ve always been a perfect child who never made a scene. If my mom says that’s untrue it’s because she is lying. Note, with that previous statement I may be acting inappropriately and I apologize.

What does an asshat girl dressed up with no where to go, go? Well, she goes out for the night. Let’s make an adventure. What more could possibly happen?

First, shoes.